Yesterday I looked at my reflection in my Kristal and posed the question what is the use? As I sat there removing the masks of the country that I love. I realized one simple thing, what is the use? As I went over it time and time again in my head, I could not shake the feeling that no matter what I do I am always going to be seen for what I am in this country. If I go to school and complete my degree program will that change anything? I think not because I will always be who and what I am. It is sad.
Lets start from the beginning, Yesterday I was having a conversation and we started to discuss the aspect of who is remembered and who isn't and of course who can make change. It is my opinion all-be-it controversial that, we are incapable of bringing about change in this country or the world, by we I mean Black Americans, The reason is simple. In order for us to effect change we must first redistribute the power which is currently held by so few in this country. Change can not and will not come until that power base is dissolved. Many people will argue that this is a defeatist attitude and it is because of people like me that change will never come. I beg to differ, of course. I see it this way in order to bring about change we must eliminate the cause of our problems. We must eliminate that which has put us into the situations that we find ourselves. We must eliminate that which we love so much.
I was told yesterday that by looking for certain personality traits people can tell by the age of 5 whether or not a child will end up in jail or prison. I believe this to be a lie. I say that by the age of 5 the system in which we live in begins to condition children for their roles in life. I believe that if tomorrow someone comes out and says "that by the year 2016 85% of black males will have been incarcerated or killed by the age of 30", then starting next year we will see laws change in order to bring about this change. Psychologist and other "think tank" individuals want to believe that we Black men are incapable of doing anything other than robbing, hustling, and selling drugs for a living. Where in reality those are the only options available to many young black males. I am not condoning nor am I making excuses for anyone, what I am saying is that if you are brought up with the short end of the stick then you will try to make a way using that short stick.
I grew up hearing and believing that if I want to make it in this world I have to work harder and be better than my white counterparts in order to get where I want in life. This ideology in itself is flawed, why should I a man with all the same tools as any other man, with all of the same resources as any other man have to work twice as hard. But the biggest part of this is I work twice as hard but still do not attain the same level as my peers. I am still a few steps behind them. This is the flaw in this system and in this frame of thought. How do you tell your child that if he does his best and works hard he can still come in second. How do you explain to your child that even though he is doing everything that he has to in order to make it he still has a 75% chance of failing. How do you bring a child into this System and then try to instill a since of pride in them.
There is a problem and all of the talking and forums from now til Underverse comes is not going to do a damn thing. As long as the power is seated where it is and where it has been we will continue to be nothing more than what we are and what we were made to be. Second Class Waste. We have made to much noise so now we are being replaced look around you, the jobs that we fought for fair treatment to get are now going to the immigrants. We are now expendable.
