Today there is no set topic for the post I am just going to ramble about things on my mind.
Over the weekend I have a few conversations with various people. One of which was trying to rekindle old flames. while listening and speaking to my friend I realized that this is a natural accurance. Even I myself am guilty of being held captive by this siren's song. The one thing that many of us do not think of during the time that we are aimlessly drawn into this abyss is that when the relationship with the said individual ended or never started it was for a reason. Our judement is clouded with the idea of being able to go back to where we were and start over. WRONG! this can not happen we forget that just as we have grown and now are in a better place to deal with that person, that person has also grown and is not the same person that we knew way back when. Thus making our attempts to restart something that has lived within our memories as the greatest love is nothing more than a fabricated fairy-tale that we tell ourselves when we need to find something comforting to depend on.
Another topic that was discussed was the idea or the fact of not having a father. I have never known my father and although would one day like to meet him, I do not feel like I have missed out on anything in life by his absense. Although I must say that I did have a father figure in my life so maybe that is why I feel the way I do. But I think of all of the people who have grown up without a father or father-figure and I wonder does it change you in any way? I know there are a lot of people in this world who where raised by their mothers or some other family member and never knew their fathers who have gone on to do great things, while on the other hand you have those who end up in very sad situations. I wonder is it the lack of a father that causes this or the lack of a nurturing enviornment. I myself lean towards the foundation of a nurturing enviornment. If you have someone who is there for you and makes you feel safe and secure as a child you can grow and do anything you want. However if you are never sure of life or what will happen next you tend to stray and do whatever it takes to sustain and protect your life, thus the end result often turns into a sad situation.
well that is it for my ramblings today, tomorrow I will have something better to talk about....I hope.
